Thursday, September 21, 2006

Only I can be me

About five years ago I was at a gallery reception for a show of some of my oil pastels. The gallery director introduced me to a regular client who was intrigued with my style and my working methods. After exchanging some pleasantries, the gentleman started to ask me some questions about my techniques. He seemed a bit surprised when I started to give him some detailed information about my materials and techniques.

After we chatted for about 20 minutes he asked me if I wasn’t afraid that someone else would be able to copy my work. It was a very flattering question but I told him that I didn’t see that as a problem. I told him that I didn’t think that anyone else could be me, or even want to be me. I had learned a long time ago that you can teach someone materials and techniques but you can never teach anyone to be an artist.

When I taught I did not hesitate to show students exactly how I achieved my results. I would bring in my own supplies and paint along with the students giving constant demonstrations. It was not my techniques, or color choices, or subject matter that made my work unique or my own, it was me. To quote Eileen Clegg, “When you begin to act on your creativity, what you find inside may be more valuable than what you produce for the external world.” There is uniqueness to every artist, to every person.

When I showed my methods to students and watched them try to duplicate it I always got a smile on my face. As they tried to use my tools I could see their creativity begin to slowly open up. Each person was creating a variation on the methods. This was not because they were trying to vary it but because they were bringing who and what they were to the methods. They were finding how these tools worked best for them and creating a variation that worked best for each one of them.

No one can really duplicate the path that my life has taken. Even if someone else experiences the same things that have shaped my life we will each see it in a different way. Where I may be fearful, another may be excited. I may be passionate while another is indifferent. As all of my experiences shape my life they also shape my art. So when I try on the colors, or styles of other artists I usually find out much. What I usually find out is what doesn’t work for me. When I do find something that does work then I also find that I have to modify it to make it work for my particular needs, hopes, and desires.

It also causes me to look deeper into myself as an artist and a person. I wonder about what drew me to the elements of another artist. I wonder why when I try to duplicate it that it may not work all that well for me. The colors, the shapes, the compositions may not be the right fit. Sometimes when I try these things on and look in the mirror I find I just don’t like the way it looks on me. This leads me to discover just a little bit more of who I am.

These two pieces are both oil pastel on panel. They are titled, "Strong Sunlight", measuring 15" X 15" and "Little Red Barn", measuring 8" X 10".


Blogger The Epiphany Artist said...

And they are gorgeous! and you are right - Only you can be you!

10:49 PM  
Blogger amber said...

Ed glad to read I've been waiting for your words of wisdom
You are sooo right & thank goodness there is only one of all of us

10:33 PM  
Blogger Lori Witzel said...

Ed, I'm glad to read this really interesting post. And of course I love love love your ramped-up luminous sparkin' colors.

Now, just to mix it up a bit...I often stop and ask, "So, Who is Me?"

Yep, a little jokey/silly, but also worth consideration.

After all, if all the cells in this body burst in and out of existence like mayflies (as they do)...and if the emotional landscape, the filter through which one processes one's experience, is more like tide than land (as it is, for almost all I think)...and if my thinking, my imagination, rests and arises from that gorgeous ephemera...

...then "Who is Me?"

Or maybe the right way to put it is "how did this, that seems to be a Me, come to be?"

You are absolutely right about same tools, same stimuli, same setting and yet still different output.

And that's one reason to create -- to discover the core, the essence, that may be the signal light within the ephemera.

Anyway, happy equinox (isn't it tomorrow?)

12:04 AM  
Blogger AngelaFerreira said...

I like them, and I really like your explanation.
Pastels, like oils are a medium that takes experience and practice to achieve good results.
I remember when I started to use both of them I would be left dirty all over but now I can use them and keep most of my clothes spotless clean. I don’t worry about this things anyway, I just notice them.
You seem to achieve with very nice colors and composition a clean and simple aesthetic value to your paintings. Very interesting!
Recently I gave my first lecture in a school and I understood totally some things you have described. I have notice some students would copy my own demonstration drawings than make their own drawings from observation.
Whichever way works for you is the best way to learn.

5:49 AM  
Blogger Globetrotter said...

So very, very true. What an artist puts on the canvas is a like a little tiny mirror of who he is, what he has felt, and the paths that life has taken him down. I had a wonderful teacher who's style I once wanted to copy. In the end I could not, any more than she could copy me. The tough part is accepting who you are and what you create and feeling satisfied with it.

8:44 AM  
Blogger Lesly said...

As usual a very interesting and thought-provoking post, Ed.

And if I am really a distillation of all the other "me's" that I have met, admired, learned from, etc, then no-one can be me .... But Me. That is sort of comforting!

And i love these two paintings.

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